Decided to drive up to Dallas at noon on a Thursday - very spur of the moment, very unlike me.
I had felt it come and go - the spark of creativity that lights up behind my eyes. For the longest time I thought I was broken; burnt out. You said it was a phase I’d have to figure out. They said the lack of attention was ADHD, but the pills only made me feel like a dulled knife - it works, but not how you need it to. I was just going through the motions. The second time around it was depression. A new set of pills. The second time around was different, I could feel myself returning. But healing often reveals more than you bargain for and the ones you love most can be the ones to behind the knife. The pain of lies and cheating filled my world to the brim, something antidepressants couldn’t heal. Getting out of bed became a chore, but every day I did it became easier - “you don’t have time to sit, you don’t have time to cry; keep running”. But I never understood why you would do it.
My mom said when you put a molding piece of fruit next to a ripe one, the mold will jump from one to the other, infecting both with its virus. You had been hurting for so long, and I tried to be there for you, your own set of pills; to show you life could be beautiful if you let it. But the mold in your heart is too thick and in the end your pain grew into mine.
Thinking back now I can see it; the things you would say - words like missiles sent to destroy. One can only take so many hits before they crumble to an inner war.
It still hurts
But I’m better off now.
With you gone.
It’s time for me to come back.
This winter, I was lucky enough to get to travel to Portugal with my architectural design studio. We set out to experience the culture we would be designing for as well as see all that Portugal has to offer. These were all shot in Porto and Lisbon on various 35mm film stocks. Hopefully you can feel just how rich the culture is through these visuals (short film made for extra effect - enjoy!)
Over winter break, we decided to make the trek from Austin to Phoenix, and then too Nevada as well to visit family for the holidays. Shot on 120 and 35mm in expired stocks all over Texas, New Mexico, Phoenix, and Nevada - here’s to putting miles on your car and eating unhealthy amounts of diner food.
Over Thanksgiving weekend, Madi and I took a road trip up north to get away from all the distractions and noise in the city. The photos from our drive have become this photo book compiled of images taken along the road. Each of its 60 pages acts as a conversation between us and our different perspectives of the same locations, all shot on both 35mm and medium format film. We call it M&m’s (ya’ll get it). The book can be found and purchased in its entirety here.
As a natural light photographer, I’ve often shied away from shooting at night, and it has something I’ve always seen as daunting and unattainable. Recently, however, with the support of those around me I’ve started facing these challenges and pushing myself to learn the art of night photography. Here are some of my favorite shots, all taken on expired 35mm Fujicolor film.
The only place to be on a Saturday night turned one over the weekend! Super proud of the homie Joaquin. The rest of the images captured can be found in Nu Wave’s zine (coming soon!).
Encompassing 6 months of photography and dialogue, this showcase aimed to be the first (hopefully) of many more conversations exploring the gray area within our current society.
A compilation of the images from the show as well as others can be found here.
With the ideas of masculinity changing, “Boy; Pretty” started as a conversation stemming from the effects of toxic masculinity on the new generation of men. Through digital and analog photography, modern masculinity is explored from behind a female lens, allowing men from many different underrepresented backgrounds and ethnicities the chance to breakdown the walls society has placed around them, and capturing them in their purest form. As an artist, I am interested in what it means to be a man in today’s world, with the pressures of old-fashioned societal rules and a new era of men who are nurturing a new perspective. Focused on empowering instead of exploiting and creating a platform to expand the mindset on an important and ongoing conversation.
A digital/analog re-work of past images taken and found. A closer look at the human condition of fashion and society through photography, collage, and word.